Sunday, February 28, 2016

Light festival Mannheim Luisenpark


 
They had two of these Instruments that they projected and they both played music, the other one was a saxophone that was about 3 meters high. 

For the last couple of years my favorite park in the World has been having a light festival in the winter and it is gorgeous. They don't put lights up in the whole park but what they have is magical and packed. When we got there the line was about a mile long but we only stood in line for about 10 minutes so it wasn't too bad. The cost to get in is 6 euros for Adults and Mia was free.











 
It was definitely worth it and I will for sure go again next year. 

Talk to you later, 
Julia
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Thursday, February 25, 2016

Regret


Do you know how life is supposed to be?
When you are growing up you are supposed to feel misunderstood by your parents and make them responsible for everything, including their "ruining" your life.
As you get older you realize that it's your job to make sure your life is in order and that you alone are responsible for the dumb shit that you do. You also start to see your parents as real people, which is weird at first.
Then you start having kids and you see what your parents went through having very little sleep and lots of responsibility.
When your kids hit puberty you start to realize that your mom and dad did the best they could with what they had, and you even start to feel ashamed at some of the things that you might have said to them or even did in the past.
Now you hit your 40s; this is the age when you finally accept responsibility for the mistakes you have made and you try to make it up to your parents by saying you are sorry — maybe even telling them where you messed up or that you even, God forbid, made the same mistake as they did years ago.
But what happens when you don't get that chance?
What happens to you when you start to have your epiphanies and your Mom or Dad are no longer there so you can make it up to them?
The feelings don't disappear just because your parents are no longer here; now you have all these feelings and you have nowhere to go with them so you start to feel guilty. To try and make yourself feel better, you try to reason with yourself. You tell yourself that they knew that you loved them and that if you would have had the chance, you would have told them or made it up to them. I'm not going to tell you to run out and tell your parents that you are sorry, because parents can do a real number on you growing up (and some people have parents that are manipulative up until they die). Don't make excuses for shitty parents; that is their cross to bear, not yours.
I am just saying that regret is a nasty feeling, especially when someone dies and takes away your chance of experiencing the natural progression of things. Let's face it: You shouldn't die until you are old and crusty and ready to go.
I have stopped reasoning and I have started to accept that sometimes you don't have time to say you are sorry and you have to find a way to be okay with that.
Maybe the next time you see your mom and dad, just hug them a little bit longer, but not with a pillow over their face because that, my friend, is murder.

Sunday, February 21, 2016

Random

I have been 40 for 5 months and 17 days and I still am not used to it. I don't know if it is because I am still not working and just bored out of my fucking mind or what.
I developed an allergy to my hair dye which means I had to go brunette and all of a sudden I got an allergic reaction to my eye makeup remover that gave me crusty eyelids but of course I had to go through all kinds of practice runs until I figured out what was causing this. So I have been going to bed looking like the joker with inch thick cream on my eyes.


Yesterday I went to a job convention to network and maybe find a good Business that would hire me and it was more than depressing.
I am going against a bunch of teenagers and the guy that was wearing a t-shirt there that said " Go fuck yourself" probably had better chances than I.  I did find one woman that sat down with me and looked at my resume and gave me some tips on how to improve it and maybe which businesses would be interested in hiring someone older. I am amazed at how hard it is to find a damn job, I guess I am not as irresistible as I thought.

The weather here has been pretty nasty so I don't want to leave the house and be cold and wet so I just stay in and snack. I put my fitbit on yesterday for the first time in months and after walking 4ooo steps my legs hurt which means I am out of shape. I will get back to 10 000 steps a day in no time.

I have been cooking low carb for about two months and even though we sometimes splurge and eat whatever we want, it has gotten better as far as our main meals go and not eating junk food.

We went to Italy for 5 days and even though it rained pretty much everyday it was still nice to see family.













Mia had her 4th Birthday that she celebrated by getting a fever the night before.
I was standing in the Kitchen decorating cake pops ( about 50 of them) when we realized that there was no way she was going to kindergarten the next day so we kept her home and the cake pops didn't go to the kids. I ate them.
 
I made the worlds ugliest birthday cake with a candle on it that scared the shit out of Mia, but it was checkerboard so the inside was cool and it was tasty, so two out of three isn't bad.



Mia started swimming lessons that she really likes and I think it will be good for her to learn it so young so I don't have a heart attack every time we go to the pool.
 
That is about all that is going on around here so nothing exciting.

Talk to you later, 
Julia

Thursday, February 4, 2016

Podcasts

I love audio books but what I don't love is the price of audio books so I found the next best thing: Podcasts.
I really enjoy podcasts because they are uncensored for one and I love me a good cussword thrown in here and there and I think that people that agree to be on a podcast are cool people.


I think I have mentioned Girl on Guy here before which is one of my favorite ones because while it is funny it's also intelligent and Alicia Tyler is such an awesome woman I could listen to her for days, especially the Self inflicted wounds segment that she does.


If you just want to laugh your ass off without really overthinking anything then check out Anna Faris is unqualified this show is really new so there aren't really that many episodes but what they do have is hysterical.


Another is the Nerdist: this podcast has almost 800 episodes so you have plenty to listen to and it is free. I really love Chris Hardwick's laugh because  you can tell he is enjoying himself.


Grownups read things they wrote as kids is a great one because it is so intimate at times and then hysterical the next minute. It comes from a live show in Canada so you get the audience reaction to each persons story and I like that.

So check these out because I obviously have amazing taste.
Take care
Julia

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